大红帽

妈妈 你能不能理解我呢 我不想跟你吵架 我知道你爱我 可是你最近跟我说的话 真的让我好伤心啊 我没有水性杨花 见一个爱一个 我跟张昊分手是我们之间的事 你不可能比我还了解他把 你能不能不要说那些让我伤心的话啊 你是我妈 你再怎么样都是爱我的 为我好的 对不对 你现在说的话让我觉得你都要遗弃我了 我就是一个什么话都会跟你说的人 记得以前那个吕游不要我的时候 甩了我欺骗我 你为我难过 为我担心 怕我受伤害 现在 我不会那样了 觉得俩人不合适就分手 我觉得真的挺正常的 我知道你为我好 觉得这么好的错过了就没有了 妈妈 我真的很爱你 你省吃俭用就为了我 这个世界上除了你 没人对我这么好了 新年  小倩走了 我一个人过的 你也没给我来个电话 我想给你打 又怕你骂我

好久没更新了 ，也没啥好说的 最近放假中 马上又要上课了

和几条狗过我的小日子

His girlfriend was just stupid i guessed. i should do something much more meaningful than what she did. people shouldnt judge others only by their appearances. i read an article today. the three most important dimensions are time, space and people relationships. however, i know i dont really have good people relationships sometimes. especially for the strangers, the people who dont know my personality.Anyway, its kinda wasting my time
to talk about this. to talk about her. she probably wont understand though, and even if she understands, she wont know that i am talking about her.
Fang was pretty upset today, actually she has been being like this for two days. i was so regretful to push her infront of that fake chiristian. She even went to mall and bought some casual clothes for him yesterday, that was really really rediculous. its not a good word though. but she really did a lot whenever she is in a relationship. people dont know her, they gossip about her, but i know she definately deserves good guys. she told me that Brendon might have already deleted us, he is a fucking liar. He pretended he is a good guy, a good christian or wutever, but those were all lies.
guys are not dependable, i thought he was kinda reliable at first though, even took Fang to Phoenix to hang
out with him. I hate the fact that i pushed Fang to him at the beginning. i feel sorry for her, i will have to help
her to find a better guy next time.   

我真的要争气了. 不能再这么没出息了. 我不能在让身边的一票人为我担心了. 我得有点种了. 不能再让人这么欺负我了. 虽然这都是我自找的. 王欲说得对. 现在难过一点. 但过一段时间. 我就会知道我这么做是对的. 现在怎么做其实都是不快乐的. 嗯.. 我真的不能再这么错下去了. 连大街上的算命的都说我再继续和他纠缠会得神经病崩溃的. 谢谢MOLLY, 小俊子. 王欲 丁配 倩子, 伟哥...身边那么多人帮助我. 他既然早在回国第三四天就为了个女的跟我分手. 就应该看清楚他是个什么样子的人. 不能再为他伤心伤神了. 就让他永远和他的家乡高中女朋友纠缠一辈子吧. 我再为他付出什么也多余. 对他多好也没用.落不到一点好名声, 还得被说成是傻逼. 现在凌晨五点. 我真的想得比较透彻了. 再也不能和他有半点纠缠了. 从现在开始. 我要开始我的新生活. 不再为他再难过一次. 不再为他再哭一次了.